Breaking Point

Im at a stage where i wish for miracles and not wanna do anything.....I wished for money to build a computer after i spent my computer savings on a PSP. The government gave me Progress Package of $900. Its a freaking miracle. Now ,after applying for NUS and NTU, i really wish i get accepted...even when i know my chances are ultra slim...like 1%? Cos my Poly results sucked so much and i failed a term before...I dont even have backup plans if i dont get accepted....All these feelings of regrets dont even help me at all as i continue to deny myself of reality...

At a point where not getting something i want in a game or not having time for my games is as painful as bathing with an open wound continuously.When will i ever have time to read a copy of 8 days i bought...or to sit down and think what i really want to do. I wish for revelation as i continue sliding deeper into darkness...

Ill post fotos of Thailand next time.Now im trying to rush my Lvl 97 Character in Talesweaver to lvl 101 so i can equip the wing backpack.And now it has been much more lively with JinFeng Chewbaka,Eric and bro,WeiQin and Ben's Friend.

Just a side note:My crazy brother pronounces "Whore" as "Wall" LOL....